Other people’s energy can be deadly to the point to hate yourself for wanting better for people and being so damn dumb. I dont believe I would be this dumb if there weren’t kids involved. I wouldnt help for over a decade. Especially a person that says family isnt shit is will hold a grudge longer than they can themselves accountable for their own shit. Just messy and miserable and making shit everyone else problem but play boss on social media. Its fucking sick. Here I am with seven kids of my own and two more dumped in my lap while she attempts to make another one and uses the kids safety as the reason they dont stay with her. Meanwhile taking care of this man son and her kids with me. If it wasnt for the kids, I would say fuck it. 12 years of this off and on. What evil fucked up cycle I have allowed in my life. Then behind my back, I am keeping secrets behind her back about her child and I dont treat her kids right but she still leaves them with me. Why god why. I dont understand and I hate this shit. This feeling and further more the nerve to ask if another grown ass man can stay to until they save money while she live with another man. How and why the fuck is this even a thing. I audacity of this grown ass woman.
Not to even put in words how fucking fucked up my five year long relationship is with a man who calls me a gold digging bitch when he’s not in my presence but has never paid more than $500 which is utitlies a month in my fucking household and still dont got shit but blames it on me. Wont defend me, excuses for marrying me which I am perfectly fine with and wont leave and my dumbass had two kids for him thinking he loves me but when shit hits the fan, it fuckkng explode the truth does it not hurt. Oh painfully, but I been getting bits and peices over the years now I am just fucking done.
Author & Poetically Speaking with Art 