Why You

You asked me “”why you”?

It stuck to me, like my skin, like the melanin that flowing freely

and the pain I endure and relive.

Like the doubt and rejection that could stop me dead in my tracks.

I tried to answer but words can not really handle the explanation of that.

Why YOU!?

You’re my constant, my love letter and fantasy my mind fights and tries to dissolve.

You’re the one who wins, or is the idea of you that has flawed?

Is it like something I never had, or are you just a combination of everything I am into?

The level of intimacy goes beyond sexual encounters.

I could have cried when you asked me, but resilience holds too much power.

Why you…

I dont understand myself sometimes, and I study the feeling.

I think I am married to your power,

like you’re something that is in my fingertips, steps, and actions,

my conscious just won’t allow me to let go.

Like I love deep and hard, that’s the heart in me.

Yet, still head strong and stubborn,

Like I can move on with life, and see you happy with someone else and still be there for you.

Like you’re family or like I have an obligation to you.

Like if your water nurtured me, I’d grow weak.

Kind of gives me Hancock vibes,

Like we will never end, but we don’t have a foundation to live on through.

It’s your conversation, upbringing, and heart.

I remember everything when it comes to you.

I can feel how good of a person you truly are.

You blind my pain,

like life doesn’t exist and I have to snap out of it.

Like a good book or movie, I’m in it with you.

I can be in the worst predicament and smile when I think of your face.

My amazing grace in my smile, you know it, when I look at you.

You’re the muse to my art, and the power in my pleasure.

You’re my last chance to feel true love, I’ve chosen…

I’m Hearttress the heart collector.

I love to love and you’re my ultimate forever,

when I say it, I mean it. I’m that honest with myself.

You’re my why, I can live through content with life, no matter what you do. I’ll with time, forgive and we’ll grow from it…better!

I love you…

-Hearttress, from the book Poetically Loving Me, coming soon!