Every decision I make, I take ownership for. I wake up everyday and realize, today is on me. What I do today is on me. The people I choose to be around is on me. The relationships I put myself in have been on me. This all led up to it all being on my shoulders. Sure I’d like someone to take the load off but somehow, I give off this energy that I got it all under control, so I have no choice but to handle it. No complaint while in the moment …I just put my head up, instead of down and handle it.
Of course I shouldn’t have to do it all alone but if I don’t no one will do it or I am considered the angry black women when I demand or ask for the same things over and over and over again…outside of business. It’s really baffles me that my feelings and emotions are considered anger but when it comes to getting it done and seeing the results, it’s somehow inspiring and powerful to watch me do it alone. It’s draining and overwhelming. I’m not carrying no one else on my back but my children, I’ve learned a life long lesson. All these hidden agendas, secrets and non sense I put up with while I was working to make me is done. I enjoy my silence and being alone because I KNOW, it’s all on me!
Author & Poetically Speaking with Art 