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Broken Heart Chronicles :Healing

I found lessons in every heart break. After the darkness fades, and you start to mental accept what you can’t change, things get brighter. You start to realize what is meant for you and is what is not. Furthermore, you realize you didn’t love yourself enough to identify the red flags for what they were and leave at that moment. Being soft and not being able to say “no” or “I am worth more!” leaves us stuck struggle with our own thought and hurting ourselves even more.

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Heart Break Chronicles: Letter to My ex

I hope you’re doing well. Because you were sick when you were with me. Sick in your head to treat someone that would do anything for you like nothing.

I remember tbe night you were talking to your ex and you were talking down about me to her like you talk down about her to me. I remember the laugh and joy she took in hearing about my flaws. I remember how you made me seem like a villain. Altnough she couldn’t recognize that because she was just happy to hear you talk about me. When you told me you hated her, I just knew it was a lie. Who wants to talk to someone they hate unless your hatred was because she didnt want you.

You told me so many lies and I found the truth. I investigated until I found the truth. She left you for a man that was in prison for 20 years. Now that is telling of how she felt in the relationship.  Who wants a man that been in prison sleeping with other men over you. Tben it dawned in me, you were a terrible lover to her to.

All the talking to your female friends and telling them you love them so passionately, but I never felt that same energy. All these things I have to unpack alone. All this drama I never wanted in my life. I was a successful woman making my own way and I allowed you to slow me down. I allowed you to lie to me until I was broken. 

I wanted to tell you in my own way. How much I am hurt inside and still healing. How you transferred that energy on me and walked away unscathed! I want to let it out so I dont have to keep this bottled up inside me anymore. You broke me into a million pieces.

You were my best friend and knew all my secrets and pain. You told me you would never do me how they did me. Let alone you did exactly that.

Your immature, inscure ways and mommy issues got the best of you. You chose to bring pain from your other relationships and use me as a punching bag. You chose to pull my anxiety back out in full force and dismantle me.

But I allowed it so I have to make a way thru it all. That’s all. I am making my way.

-heartbreak chronicles

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Where Lust is Over Love

As an empath, I feel deeply for other people and their stories. I watch a young lady get proposed to online and everything seemed like it was great for them. As her boyfriend always boasts about what a great woman she was and how he loved her deeply. To the point he would die for her. I craved that type of love, so I followed their story.

He found out she was cheating on him, but instead of breaking up with her, he started cheating as well. They both were cheating on each other. Two weeks after proposing to her, he left her for the other girl because she said she was pregnant. Of course, it’s embarrassing and devastating to put all of this information online.

He carried on about how the woman he claimed he would die for was a burden on him. He continued to talk about how she needs to work on herself because every man that comes into her life doesn’t stay. He continued to berate her on social media for everyone to see. He carried on about how he confronted multiple men about her and fought over her countless times. I thought it was over for good at this point.

I continued to follow their story and come to find out, the girl that was supposed to be pregnant lied to break them up. Now they are all learning valuable lessons about life. They were both wrong and now they’re both without a home, love, and income because of the drama that continued to pour over ever week.

What would you do in this situation?

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This is on me

Every decision I make, I take ownership for. I wake up everyday and realize, today is on me. What I do today is on me. The people I choose to be around is on me. The relationships I put myself in have been on me. This all led up to it all being on my shoulders. Sure I’d like someone to take the load off but somehow, I give off this energy that I got it all under control, so I have no choice but to handle it. No complaint while in the moment …I just put my head up, instead of down and handle it.

Of course I shouldn’t have to do it all alone but if I don’t no one will do it or I am considered the angry black women when I demand or ask for the same things over and over and over again…outside of business. It’s really baffles me that my feelings and emotions are considered anger but when it comes to getting it done and seeing the results, it’s somehow inspiring and powerful to watch me do it alone. It’s draining and overwhelming. I’m not carrying no one else on my back but my children, I’ve learned a life long lesson. All these hidden agendas, secrets and non sense I put up with while I was working to make me is done. I enjoy my silence and being alone because I KNOW, it’s all on me!

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Chronicles of an Empath…

The heart of an empath works harder than feeling…

The thoughts entering my concise aren’t mine,

It’s hard to decipher who needs healing

As I drive myself to the point of insane

Trying understand why I can feel what is unheard or seen.

I quiet myself to hear my own thoughts

Observe my surroundings so that I can seek out who sought,

To vibe so strongly on the same frequency.

The job of an empath is to make that person seen!

Make them aware, you’re not alone and with comfort

If you ever need a ear to confess

Confide, I am open

Strong enough to heal myself as I watch you

An empath that demands nothing more than self love from you.

Speaking from experience, it never goes away but it gets a little easier to live each day.

One day at a time, one minute at a time, heal yourself and drop off the pain.

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Out Growing

It’s okay to outgrow people and move forward, the world is made the way. The universe is designed that way to keep evolving and changing. We are not made to just settle and think it’s okay. You’re not supposed to ensure you happiness in the hands of someone else. Self love is knowing what’s best for you and also doing what is best for you.

I’ve been caught up in so many relationships and friendships, where I feel used and end up hurt. I end up blaming myself but I didn’t stop the pattern. I tend to pick people who do just enough to be around me to fulfill their agenda. I wish to be around people who will elevate me.

I can’t stand being around people who talk and don’t do anything anymore. I can’t be around people who don’t want nothing anymore. I can’t have that energy on me. I got to a point I stay away from people. Their interest aren’t mine, and it’s okay to stop coming around and focus on you. This is part of loving yourself. This is part of your growth and believing in you. This is your journey!

-Hearttress, Love More, Hate Less!

Growth and Comfort do not Coexist.

_Ginni Rommety
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ABCs of My Queen poem

Just her…unfiltered pain, smile wiping the image away. Higher like the priest made…standing holier than the demon slayed. Powerful in the belief of me. A balance as perfect as earth’s tilt from disaster, in a blink. It’s her, the one they’d misunderstand and play. Unbeknownst to them, nothingness wills their ways…no energy for it. A cycle like and infinity 8, a thousand times more resiliency than their agendas could pay. Just her making her peace, with all the flaws and lessons she reaps…convicting aura of unconditional rays, vibrating light-years into the paradigm of self governed space….she is everything she said she would be….Hearttress…the heart collecting mence, gaslighting greatness, intellect, and beauty in her name…
By Hafina Jones aka Hearttress
May 7th, 2022
“ABCs of My Queen” Coming Soon

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