Author & Poetically Speaking with Art

You tell him you need help, he know all about your pain. You tell him your weak spots and hope that he’ll change. You think he’d be for his kids, youd think he’s for his family. But he cant even understand hanging out and leave her home to manage she’d break and he accuse her of not being a woman
Wont fix anything, only there when you not working, wont even watch his own kids while she try to get her money. Just cause work from home she’s supposed to be able to see around corners. Correct the kids and bring the home to order. While he drinks and claims its business, knowing you been there with him and know exactly what he do. While busy trying to built you. He’s somewhere else building his friends and neglecting the family he imagines he has.
I dont apply any press
We just going to grow apart and co parents
How you part time dad and I lay next to you
Claiming I dont I nothing nice to say when you met me being real
Met me telling the truth and how I feel met me with this baggage you can barely keep up. Met with this pain from my past and you gave up on picking me up.
I wont brag on what I gave but I did give you vivid color, something for you to run back to your ex with while you pretend you dont love her, hang with crack whores and would swear you didnt fuck her.
Say I ain’t on my shit when I dont have time to because I’m putting home first, yes a dirty mother fucker.

I read a post on facebook that said delete your friends and add all new people to grow your business. So I considered it then realized I have over 3,000 friend and that would be too time consuming. So I decided the best move to make was networking on other platforms that I already have like Twitter, Snapchat, Instagram, and LinkedIn. I decided to join some memberships and attend some webinars where I can network with like minded people. I just started to come back out of a shell I’ve been locked in for the past 10 years.

I challenge everyone to meet ten new people a day. Even if it’s a copy and paste speech. Give them all you got. Be the best you want never look back & learn from your present to shape a greater future.

There’s no future with someone hanging on to the past. You start to see how tranactional they are with you and how blind you’ve been just to have them. There’s no freedom in regrets and there’s definitely no future in fronting. Explains why there’s no growth in some relationships…just people reacting but never compromising. Seeing the struggle you’re supposed to face together, but boldly walking over them and assuming credit for the shit every adults have to do, no sacrifice and damn sure no substance.  Just existing without cause or command….
You’re stuck and I can’t change that, and I refuse to wait…there’s no freedom in love that isn’t growing. Just the same old drama, situations, and BS! A vicious rhythms, I try to politely remove myself from without coming off as a truth most mfrs cant swallow.

As a mother there is the fear but theres also the facts. If they dont want it to spread, why havent we quarantined by now? Exactly the reason I make most of the decisions i do in my daily life and one is to stay home. I work from home and as a virtual assistance , author, and sub contractor, I’ve found ways to survive without contact with people.

For one, starting a garden and hydroponic garden inside. I’ve been doing my research and I’m successfully growing, everything green you can think of. Theres even a banana tree that a nursery gifted to me before the pandemic. Two having a deep freezer full at all times. My grandmother taught me early on about gardens and keeping a freezer full at all times. That means use then refrigerated freezer and not your deep freezer. That freezer is for hard times. Three find work that involves no contact. If you search my site theres plenty of jobs you could yourself take on with my help or with your own research. I specialize in getting businesses started. This involves phone and video conferences with my clients to make their business a reality. I dont only consult but assist. Four keep your friends at a distance. I’m not the one with many friends but the one that can go without. Five build social media presence since the quarantine is becoming a way of life for places like New York. I pray things get better for our nation however. It appears things will get worse before they will get better. Take care of mother earth, eat green and mind your business.

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Although I have as much education as I have and intelligence, I end y with positions for the masses. Primarily a working ant because I’m either over qualified, the interviewer is giving me attitude and I can pretty much tell this goes no where although I keep calm or it’s someone on the team that’s just judging me by how I look. That’s why I do everything I can to work for myself. It never fails. My only downfall is not having a team and having to revert back to these worked ant positions. How am I changing this, I’m starting with my surrounding and getting better at keeping a circle of individuals who are on my level. I work a regular nine to five and I work for myself. I enjoy it sometimes acting like I dont know what’s going on or who is what. Somehow I tend to know how things work and I am just able to complete the position with minimal training. I become bored and dont feel the challenge or important so I find another one and another one and it’s always the same thing. Either there is no challenge or there are these negative, incompetent individuals in positions afraid I want their position when in reality I am qualified for position way over their level. I watch and listen and observe and I am learning the best thing to do is stay humble.

I thought it thru and I realize I need to make my books and studies my other job. Working on it in between isnt satisfying enough. I only get to work on my books on the weekends because I have committed myself to money for than my own pleasures. It’s hard to chose when you made the decision to have seven children and have fathers present that really aren’t. Doing things alone and feeling like their money is all they have to offer stirs a different discussion I am not ready to discus. No ranting today. Today I am going to relax and let life be what it is…more work on me less stress.