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Growth

Decaying love
Eating itself for growth
Like a rose out concrete
Always coming back from the impossible
Not looking for validation or affection
Just strength and the courage to love again
Living solid.
Loving me first before I every leverage my heart again
Auctioning my pain as art
Flipping my negatives to positive
Looking straight past my non sense
And embracing the silver lining
Caring with intent
Observant with purpose
Perplexing how the paradigm of the mind can be your own demise
Your decision
I chose forward
I chose me, myself,  and my seeds
The ability to grow while empty. 
I chose optimism and my own ignorance for bliss.
I chose self love as my happiness.

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My Fantasies

You want to know my fantasy
It’s deeper than me
Someone who prays with me then meditates with me and makes love to me . Knows my needs
Explores my body…
My all in one and I’m his everything
Like Wilson sees Ciara
Someone already looking at me and see their forever.
Someone ready to open up in every way
So honest with me even if I feel pain. 
Holding my front back and sides
Sexual desires then activate
When we’re one
My fancy thrives internally…

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Love Rewind

Alluring love
Enduring the sweet ephiany of your sweetest touch
Yes you remind me of another life time.
How else could it be addicting
Falling For what?!
Is it the mirror of our thoughts meeting in a new realm.
Or a seance from the pits of hell…
Calling me sweetly to my demise
The paradigm of the mind never left me blind
Seeing my truth
As I soak in it
As time tells on every love
Spinning the block again
I knew I knew love.
I know I gave it my all
But why are you stuck here
Fuck with my area
With games, lies, and smiles in the moment.
But there is no more tears..m
If I left you alone You would be okay til life fucks you again.
Tell how to I heal you before I do it again.
I know I have to get something else beside affection out of this pain.
You can’t even see me or understand where I’ve gone or if I’m coming within
You just really think you have me whenever you want…
Same lies told the same twice
Turning liars to enemies
Now I walk around with this complex
Boy it’s a trigger for me.✌

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Non Monogamous Relationships in Modern Day Love

I just watched a show where there’s a big increase in non monogamous relationships because the way love is being defined in modern day.

There is a gay and straight woman married but they have separate partners because they have different sexual preferences and desires.

Would you marry your best friend if you could?

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On my down days

When I’m feeling down…

It bothers me

Especially when. Yesterday was great and the day before. Then I realize there was on affection and intimacy in those moments. Majority of my life I believe out of habit I’ve craved to be loved everyday by whom I choose. Not who chooses me. When its not my way. I feel down and I have to check myself. I have to pull myself out of that bad habit that the one you love isn’t the one who’s going to rescue me from my temporary misery. So I pull myself together little by little. I move back into my routine and sooner or later im able to smooth myself out and get back to normal. Today is a good day! I managed to fool myself into the thought that love will rescue me. Only I can rescue me!

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Becoming…

Passionate kisses 

Formulates this compassion I been missing

Kind of healing

With some amnesia 

I start forgetting all my problems and everything that stresses me

Like your lips are my holy place

And I can feel in every kiss 

You’re blessing me

Rising more than my high to climax

I feel you 

Kissing and licking around my lips slowly

Opening your eyes to see

It’s me 

Kissing like a beast gently 

Leading me with your hands

This tight hold you have on me

How can I forget this feeling

As we collide at this opening 

I ask myself do you mean it, like I do

Is this moment everything like I’m thinking right now

Like we want to eat each other 

It’s the wanting

Of you inside me and you wanting in

Kissing our way into  love making…

Mixing ourselves within one another

Gracefully becoming one with a kiss

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Moon in ♏ Scorpio New book Poetically Loving Me

I’ve had my fair share of friendships and love. Somehow my friendships are growing into something deeper than I thought. All five men that I fell in love with are currently attempting to rekindle something that there is no coming back from. Being single has made the exploration of such conversations easier to take part in. Im just wondering what went wrong in their life that they are all back. One back to marry me, one back that is married that wants me to be his spiritual husband which is totally weird , and the others are lingering around attempting acts of kindness that they believe will win my heart again. Some time men don’t understand. There is no coming back from where we been. The embarrassing backstories behind these men will be featured in a book called Poetically Loving Me. Not only touching on the bad things but hopefully taking heed to the good things. An attempt to tell men how to love a woman who is head strong and sensitive. How to make sure she caters to you in the same ways you’re attempting to love her. Of course, I’ve made mistakes but there is nothing in any relationship I’ve been in that I’d take back. I gave 100% of me and I can’t say I cheated them from anything. I made sure they grew and gave them the freedom to be themselves and be successful within themselves. The effects come back to huant me now and will be touched in Poetically Loving Me, coming soon!